The title of this blog is a question that has been playing on my mind alot recently. How will you know it's the right decision if you never make it?
Sometimes in life we are left standing at a crossroads, needing to make a decision but feeling too afraid to incase it turns out to be the wrong one!!!
One of my favourite scriotures is the same scripture that Joesph Smith himself read before going into the grove of trees .. James 1:5 "if any of ye lack wisdom let him ask of God" The obvious thing to do when we are struggling to make a secision is to ask Heavenly Father to help us make it. We already know he has a plan for us, he knows what we can do and all we can be if we are faithful and he is always and will always guide us if we are willing to let him.
Search, ponder and pray has been my motto for finding answers and making decisions for years but what happens when you get the answer... or at least you think you do. what do you do then? What happens when the answer you recieve is not the one you wanted or when you're not sure if the answer is even an answer at all. I have experienced these feelings more than even in the past year, as I have been thinking and planning my future. I have had to make decisions which have scared me and if I am totally honest when I have been making them I have not been 100% sure they have been the right ones!!!!!
Then I found that quote and I realised that sometimes we have to trust in the Holy Ghost, put our faith in our Heavenly Father, trust our instincts and jump!!!
Yes it's scary and sometimes you may go wrong, but going wrong is a part of life!! We need to experience the negative in order to appreciate the good!!
I wonder how many blessings or special experiences I have missed out on by giving into my fear of getting it wrong in the past.
I am tired of standing on the shoreline too afraid to dip my toes in the water incase I fall, so from now on I am giving up being afraid and I am going to jump in with both feet!! I know that as long as I am faithful I will never jump alone because my Heavenly Father will be right there with me!!
After all how will I know if it is the right decision if I never make it!!
Tuesday, 29 July 2014
The four C's... cooling feet, criminals, cows and concerts!!!
On Saturday I got to complete one of the items on my bucket list!!!!! ( the bucket list I have almost finished editing!!!) My best friend Vikki and I went to see Boyzone in concert!!!! I have wanted to see them for like 20 years so you can imagine how excited I was!!!!!!! Vikki almost had to hold me back and stop me swimming across the lake that was inbetween the crowd and the stage in order to get to the lads!!!! ( what a stupid place to put a lake!!) Saturday was a gorgeous day too!!! So hot!!! Such a rare occurrence in England!
Heres what you need to know about Vikki... When I say she is my best friend I really mean it!! She is the person who knows everything about me, the person who I can talk to about anything and the person who is usually stood right next to me whenever I am doing something stupid!!!! Vikki is also a shining example to me in the church. She loves the gospel and it shows in all that she does and says. She shows me how to be a better person without judging me or pointing out my mistakes, she simply loves me and encourages me!!!! I love her like a fat kid loves cake!!!!
This weekend I have felt truly blessed to have friends like Vikki in my life. I felt particularly blessed on Saturday as I got to spend some long overdue time with Vikki!!
We cooled our feet on fans, met a criminal on the train, sang our hearts out to Boyzone and played eye spy until we cried with laughter!!! ( apparently pretend people is not something you can eye spy!)
The concert was most definitely worth the wait and I am thankful that I got to complete an item on my list with such a wonderful person alongside me!!
Life is not easy, we are never sure what lies around the corner, we never really understand the plan that God has for us, but life is also filled with beautiful precious moments that fill our hearts with joy and make us feel blessed to be alive. It is those moments that fill our hearts with joy and make us feel blessed to be alive, it is those moments that make the harder paths worth walking! :)
Life is good ... Bring on the rest of the bucket list!!!!!!!!!!
This weekend I have felt truly blessed to have friends like Vikki in my life. I felt particularly blessed on Saturday as I got to spend some long overdue time with Vikki!!
We cooled our feet on fans, met a criminal on the train, sang our hearts out to Boyzone and played eye spy until we cried with laughter!!! ( apparently pretend people is not something you can eye spy!)
The concert was most definitely worth the wait and I am thankful that I got to complete an item on my list with such a wonderful person alongside me!!
Life is not easy, we are never sure what lies around the corner, we never really understand the plan that God has for us, but life is also filled with beautiful precious moments that fill our hearts with joy and make us feel blessed to be alive. It is those moments that fill our hearts with joy and make us feel blessed to be alive, it is those moments that make the harder paths worth walking! :)
Life is good ... Bring on the rest of the bucket list!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 27 July 2014
Bucket lists and birthday wishes
On Thursday I had an appointment with my neurologist ... well actually I had an appointment with a new neurologist..who's Greek and awesome!!!! In the space of 40 minutes he changed all my medication, confirmed TLE and booked my future MRI and EEG tests!!!! I left that appointment feeling the happiest I have ever felt after a hospital appointment!!!! I know that this is down to my Heavenely Father and his love for me. Days like Thursday just testify to me that my Heavenly Father is there, that my prayers are not only heard beyond these four walls but that they are also answered :)
Previously I said that this week, having been filled with epilepsy problems, had been a little tough but that I was determined to look at life through more positive eyes. The same eyes I used years ago when I wrote my bucket list!!
So I have set myself a challenge ... ( drumroll please) .... I am going to complete all of the items on my bucket list before I turn 30!!!!!!!!!!!! I turn 25 on Thursday so this gives me 5 years to accomplish everything!! Its a little crazy but crazy is what I am good at :)
I have been busy editing the wonderful bucket list of joy in preperation for this new challenge!! Crossing off the things I have already achieved, such as going to Australia and learning to knit!!
Here I am fulfilling a dream and feeding kangaroos in Australia!!!!
I have also being adding a few new items to my list!!! Things that back when I was 14 I would never have thought of!!
I know that my Heavenly Father leads and guides my life, that I don't walk down any path alone!! I am thankful for the knowledge I have that as long as you keep walking help will come, maybe not at that moment and maybe not in this life but eventually help and relief will come!!!
I am excited for the new adventures I am going to be blessed with in my life!!
The gospel is beautiful, wonderful and true, I know it with all my heart. We are not promised that this life will be easy only that it will be worth it :)
I say .. TLE, bucket lists, challenges, adventures, difficult times ahead...BRING IT ON ..my Heavenly Father has got this :)
Previously I said that this week, having been filled with epilepsy problems, had been a little tough but that I was determined to look at life through more positive eyes. The same eyes I used years ago when I wrote my bucket list!!
So I have set myself a challenge ... ( drumroll please) .... I am going to complete all of the items on my bucket list before I turn 30!!!!!!!!!!!! I turn 25 on Thursday so this gives me 5 years to accomplish everything!! Its a little crazy but crazy is what I am good at :)
I have been busy editing the wonderful bucket list of joy in preperation for this new challenge!! Crossing off the things I have already achieved, such as going to Australia and learning to knit!!
I have also being adding a few new items to my list!!! Things that back when I was 14 I would never have thought of!!
I know that my Heavenly Father leads and guides my life, that I don't walk down any path alone!! I am thankful for the knowledge I have that as long as you keep walking help will come, maybe not at that moment and maybe not in this life but eventually help and relief will come!!!
I am excited for the new adventures I am going to be blessed with in my life!!
The gospel is beautiful, wonderful and true, I know it with all my heart. We are not promised that this life will be easy only that it will be worth it :)
I say .. TLE, bucket lists, challenges, adventures, difficult times ahead...BRING IT ON ..my Heavenly Father has got this :)
Wednesday, 23 July 2014
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass ... It's about learning to dance in the rain
So this week I suffered from more epilepsy problems than Mormon problems!!
Even though I am more used to having seizures now then I used to be it still and will always suck having a seizure. It isn't even so much the actual seizure that is that bad .. Most seizures only last a matter of minutes, it's the way you feel after. It's that skull crushing headache that lasts for two days after the seizure , or the emotional roller coaster that you go on for at least 24 hours after , where you can't quite get your emotions in check , or that horrible feeling that comes when your mind is working at a slower pace than a sloth.
I am very lucky to be blessed with a great group of friends and family who love and support me , however sometimes one of the biggest problems is when people expect you to be ok minutes after the seizure. It is so frustrating having to explain to someone that yes you still have a headache the day after. However these things are sent to try us and as u said I am very blessed to have family and friends who love and support me :) :)
The events of this week have had me thinking about life, the challenges it brings and the ways that I personally deal with them!!
Earlier this week I found the bucket list I wrote years ago when I was 14! The list is huge, so I obviously had lots of hopes and dreams back when I was 14! Re-reading it some of the things I had written made me laugh , such as being in two places at once or winning a gold medal.. Even though I am dangerously uncoordinated at most sports!!
Even though some of my hopes and dreams were obviously a little bit unrealistic , rereading that list has made me realise that back when I was 14 I looked at life with a different perspective. I looked past the problems and the difficulties and instead focused on the future. I believed in myself and in all I wanted to achieve in my life and I know that when I wrote that list I truly believed that everything was possible!! What a wonderful way to look at life! Back then I guess I just trusted in gods plan and got on with things, having faith and hope for myself and the future!!
I have decided that I need to regain that perspective that I seem to have lost! That I need to stop worrying about the problems or challenges I may face and instead live my life the way I want to, believing in myself and my dreams and trusting always in The Lord and his timing :)
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass it's about learning to dance in the rain .... Someone pass me my dancing shoes and let's get wet!
Even though I am more used to having seizures now then I used to be it still and will always suck having a seizure. It isn't even so much the actual seizure that is that bad .. Most seizures only last a matter of minutes, it's the way you feel after. It's that skull crushing headache that lasts for two days after the seizure , or the emotional roller coaster that you go on for at least 24 hours after , where you can't quite get your emotions in check , or that horrible feeling that comes when your mind is working at a slower pace than a sloth.
I am very lucky to be blessed with a great group of friends and family who love and support me , however sometimes one of the biggest problems is when people expect you to be ok minutes after the seizure. It is so frustrating having to explain to someone that yes you still have a headache the day after. However these things are sent to try us and as u said I am very blessed to have family and friends who love and support me :) :)
The events of this week have had me thinking about life, the challenges it brings and the ways that I personally deal with them!!
Earlier this week I found the bucket list I wrote years ago when I was 14! The list is huge, so I obviously had lots of hopes and dreams back when I was 14! Re-reading it some of the things I had written made me laugh , such as being in two places at once or winning a gold medal.. Even though I am dangerously uncoordinated at most sports!!
Even though some of my hopes and dreams were obviously a little bit unrealistic , rereading that list has made me realise that back when I was 14 I looked at life with a different perspective. I looked past the problems and the difficulties and instead focused on the future. I believed in myself and in all I wanted to achieve in my life and I know that when I wrote that list I truly believed that everything was possible!! What a wonderful way to look at life! Back then I guess I just trusted in gods plan and got on with things, having faith and hope for myself and the future!!
I have decided that I need to regain that perspective that I seem to have lost! That I need to stop worrying about the problems or challenges I may face and instead live my life the way I want to, believing in myself and my dreams and trusting always in The Lord and his timing :)
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass it's about learning to dance in the rain .... Someone pass me my dancing shoes and let's get wet!
Sunday, 6 July 2014
He to rescue me from danger interposed his precious blood ...
"Jesus sought me when a stranger wandering from the fold of God, he to rescue me from danger interposed his precious blood" ..this is one of my favourite lines from one of my favourite songs/hymns Come Thou Fount. (I am actually a little bit sad that it is no longer in our hymn book!)
I love it because it reminds me of the atonement of Christ and the reasons why the atonement was needed!!!!! ..Jesus Christ died and "interposed his precious blood" not only to allow me, you and everyone to be resurrected but also to allow us to be rescued from the danger of sin and to return home to our heavenly father, to be able to live with him again, IF we are faithful , worthy and keep his commandments!!! What a wonderful gift and a beautiful promise!!!
The atonement of the saviour is something we have talked about a lot in my house recently. For those people who don't know me very well I come from a part member family and the part of my family that is a member is, for the most part, inactive. Over the past few weeks, I have been practising sharing the gospel and talking about the principles and ordinances with my Dad!!! At the beginning of our little chats and mini lessons I have to say he was not overly enthusiastic , especially when on one occasion listening to me discuss how faith leads to baptism caused him to miss Holland score a goal during the world cup! However, as our lessons and chats progressed something changed and something wonderful happened, my Dad started to enjoy our chats!!! I would love to take credit for this change of heart and say that it was because of my wonderful teaching skills but I know that it was all down to Heavenly Father and the Holy Ghost!!!
During one of our chats I recieved one of the greatest gifts my Dad could ever give me. Something I have wanted for years and honestly thought I would never get. I got to hear him bear his testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ and the truthfulness of the book of mormon. I had the privilage and the honor of hearing him tell me,with tears in his eyes, how much he loves his saviour and how he knows that his saviour loves him because just as the song lyrics say he interposed his precious blood for him so that all of his mistakes and his short comings can be taken away and he can be made clean again.
Today I got to see my dad at church, partaking of the sacrament, remembering and renewing his convanats. What a blessing and a privilage that was.
Hearing my fathers testimony has only stengthened my own testimony of the atonement of Christ and I am truly thankful for the wonderful and remarkable gift that it is. I don't think I will ever or can ever fully understand or comprehend just what the saviour did for me , but I do know that on days like today, when my heart is so filled with love and the spirit ,I feel truly blessed because of all the things the atonement brings to my life and the ways in which it blesses me everyday.I love my heavenly father with all my heart and I look forward to giving my heart to him and serving him.
THE BOOK IS BLUE THE CHURCH IS TRUE!!
I love it because it reminds me of the atonement of Christ and the reasons why the atonement was needed!!!!! ..Jesus Christ died and "interposed his precious blood" not only to allow me, you and everyone to be resurrected but also to allow us to be rescued from the danger of sin and to return home to our heavenly father, to be able to live with him again, IF we are faithful , worthy and keep his commandments!!! What a wonderful gift and a beautiful promise!!!
The atonement of the saviour is something we have talked about a lot in my house recently. For those people who don't know me very well I come from a part member family and the part of my family that is a member is, for the most part, inactive. Over the past few weeks, I have been practising sharing the gospel and talking about the principles and ordinances with my Dad!!! At the beginning of our little chats and mini lessons I have to say he was not overly enthusiastic , especially when on one occasion listening to me discuss how faith leads to baptism caused him to miss Holland score a goal during the world cup! However, as our lessons and chats progressed something changed and something wonderful happened, my Dad started to enjoy our chats!!! I would love to take credit for this change of heart and say that it was because of my wonderful teaching skills but I know that it was all down to Heavenly Father and the Holy Ghost!!!
During one of our chats I recieved one of the greatest gifts my Dad could ever give me. Something I have wanted for years and honestly thought I would never get. I got to hear him bear his testimony of the gospel of Jesus Christ and the truthfulness of the book of mormon. I had the privilage and the honor of hearing him tell me,with tears in his eyes, how much he loves his saviour and how he knows that his saviour loves him because just as the song lyrics say he interposed his precious blood for him so that all of his mistakes and his short comings can be taken away and he can be made clean again.
Today I got to see my dad at church, partaking of the sacrament, remembering and renewing his convanats. What a blessing and a privilage that was.
Hearing my fathers testimony has only stengthened my own testimony of the atonement of Christ and I am truly thankful for the wonderful and remarkable gift that it is. I don't think I will ever or can ever fully understand or comprehend just what the saviour did for me , but I do know that on days like today, when my heart is so filled with love and the spirit ,I feel truly blessed because of all the things the atonement brings to my life and the ways in which it blesses me everyday.I love my heavenly father with all my heart and I look forward to giving my heart to him and serving him.
THE BOOK IS BLUE THE CHURCH IS TRUE!!
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